Lise: Finding the Colour Again

Finding the Colour Again, Watercolour by Lise McDermid

Finding the Colour Again, Watercolour by Lise McDermid.
Inspired by the Marina McDonald photo “Take What you Want and Pay for it.”

 

The painting details my receding hairline, the ghastly thin hair, my lack of eyebrows and eyelashes, the impact of the permanent disfigurement of losing my thick, long blond hair from FEC D (FEC T).  The cruel irony of being alive but having to live with such a horrifying disfigurement, the desperation I feel when I look at myself closely in a mirror. The colour and vibrance in my life has washed away.

Coming to terms with the long-term loss of my hair has been a very slow process.
It has been much harder to cope psychologically than with the cancer itself, my double mastectomy and radiation, the loss of my fertility from premature menopause, the continued side effects from anti-cancer drugs and the long wait for reconstruction to be completed.

The cow is a reminder of the constant online support I’ve had from other breast cancer survivors.

by Lise (Australia)

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